Night Without Ben

This morning on my way out the door to go to work, I fell down the stairs and landed on my butt. I got up, realized that I had fallen, and called Ben crying because I was worried I had hurt that baby. It was such a scary thing. Tonight Ben has to work really late and I am so sad. What am I going to do without him? He hasn't had to work this late in a long time. He is getting paid really well so that is the only good part about it. I told him since he got called into work, I get to go get Subway's famous 5 dollar foot longs for lunch! So guess what I did?...yep, I got the oven roasted chicken. It is absolutely the best.

I swear that my belly is growing more and more everyday. It is so crazy how a baby can grow to a complete human in 9 months. WOW! It is mind-boggling.

My family stopped by yesterday and they had a fun time in Yellowstone. All of the kids got fun little stuffed animals and shirts. I cannot wait to take our kids on a vacation and get them cute little things. I was thinking about how a baby is going to change my life and our families life. The baby is for sure not going to hurt anything. It is only going to make things stronger between Ben and I, and now we are starting a new chapter in our lives. We are no longer newlyweds...we are going to have a baby. It really doesn't hit me until the baby kicks and I know what it is real. There is a little human life in there. I have to choose wisely because my choices affect the baby. That is a scary thought. I had this cream last night about the baby and it seemed so real. I felt like I was a mom and that I had a baby with me. It was so cool. And the baby was a GIRL! Yeah! At least it is not a trans sexual like the night before in my dream. That was odd.

I guess I will be fine without Ben tonight. My visiting teachers are coming over and it will be fine. I will just watch tv. That will be a nice break.